waiting for the kiss
05.28.08 (1:10 pm) [edit]I've never had the chance To kiss your beautiful lips To hold you tight all day To run my fingers through your hair Or talk to you till the sun comes up My mind says this won't be so But my heart knows different Someday I will do these wonderful things And never let you go No matter how long it takes No matter how many tears it makes I will see you Kiss you And hold you Until the end of time
im an emo kid song
05.27.08 (12:47 pm) [edit]Dear Diary, Mood-Apethetic My life is spiraling downward. I couldn't get enough money to go to the Blood Red Romance and Suffocate Me Dry concert. It sucks because they play some of my favorite songs like Stab My Heart Because I Love You and Rip Apart My Soul and of course Stabby Rip Stab Stab and it doesn't help that I couldn't get my hair to do that flippy thing either like the guy from that one band can do. I'm an emo kid, nonconforming as can be You'd be nonconforming too if you looked just like me I got paint on my nails and makeup on my face I'm almost emo enough to start shaving my legs Cause I feel real deep when I'm dressing in drag I call it freedom of expression most just call me a fag Cause our dudes look like chicks and our chicks look like dykes Cause emo is one step below transvestite Stop my breathing and slit my throat I must be emo I don't jump around when I go to shows I must be emo I'm dark and sensitive with low self esteem The way I dress makes everyday feel like Halloween I have no real problems but I like to make believe I stole my sisters mascara now I'm grounded for a week Sulking and writing poetry are my hobbies I can't get through a Hawthorne Heights album without sobbing Girls keep breaking up with me its never any fun They say they already have a xxxxx they don't need another one Stop my breathing and slit my throat I must be emo I don't jump around when I go to shows I must be emo Dye in my hair and polish on my toes I must be emo I play guitar and write suicide notes I must be emo ...My life is just a black abyss you know? Its so dark and its suffocating me, grabbing a hold of me and tightening its grip. Tighter than a pair of my little sisters jeans...Which look great on me by the way... When I get depressed I cut my wrist in every direction Hearing songs about getting dumped give me an erection I write in a LiveJournal and wear thick rim glasses I tell my friends I bleed black and cry during classes I'm just a bad, cheap imitation of goth You can read me 'Catcher in the Rye' and watch me jack off I wear skin tight clothes while hating my life If I said I like girls, I'd only be half right I look like I'm dead and dress like a homo I must be emo Screw Xbox I play old school nintendo I must be emo I like to whine and hate my parentals I must be emo Me and my friends all look like clones I must be eeeeeeemo ...My parents don't get me ya know? They think I'm xxx just because they saw me kiss a guy...well a couple of guys but I mean its the 2000's can't 2 or 4 dudes makeout with eachother without being gay? I mean chicks dig that kinda thing anyways. I don't know diary sometimes I think you're the only one who gets me. You're my best friend. I feel like tacos.
my life sucks
05.27.08 (12:22 pm) [edit]woke up today, won't be the same, I'll cope with this flaw that's my life and that's ok it's not depressing it just takes a little work. i try a little harder, try a little harder than everyone else... i don't want your pity. i'm happy with what i am. if you don't like how i act then you don't have to be around me. if i could just grow up then everything would be just fine. why does my life suck? today i broke a mirror with some grace. seven years of bad luck don't seem so bad. just an extension of what i already had.
scars go back
05.26.08 (12:40 pm) [edit]The pain is pouring out From my body and soul. You can see where I have taken it out on myself The scars all tell a story, Of a when Of a why... The scars show the pain that others have caused me The pain that others have forced me to live through. The scars go back in time... Back to a time where the tears ran free, where the blood would flow out of my body, onto the floor. Where the only thing on my mind was the pain, the pain I wanted a cut to resolve. A time where the relief was felt, Felt after the blood left me. When my friends were pushed away, When I ignored everything A time when I only wanted to... die. The scars go back, back to a time... A time where I would see how deep I could go, comparing my scars, to my friends. A time where the blood would satisfy all the pain, put it on hold. A time where I could scream out, and no one would come. A time where I would sleep with my blades in hand ready, and waiting, for that moment a panic attack came. The scars go back, back to a time... A time where I would only wear long sleeves, where my wrists were always bandaged. A time where it would hurt to move, the slightest inch. A time where I couldn't stop, the need to use my blade. Wait, That time is now...
dameged by tlc
05.26.08 (12:06 pm) [edit]I know I'm kinda strange, to you sometimes Don't always say, what's on my mind You know that I've been hurt, by some guy But I don't wanna mess up this time [BRIDGE] And I really really really care And I really really really want you And I think I'm kinda scared Cos I don't want to lose you If you really really really care Then maybe you can hang through I hope you understand It's nothing to you [CHORUS] My heart's at a low I'm so much to manage I think you should know that I've been damaged I'm falling in love There's one disadvantage I think you should know that I've been damaged I might look through your stuff, for what I don't wanna find Or I might just set you up, to see if you're all mine I'm a little paranoid, from what I've been through Don't know what you got yourself into And I really really really care (And I care about you so much) And I really really really want you (I really do want you) And I think I'm kinda scared (But I'm scared with every touch) Cos I don't want to lose you (Cos I don't want to lose you) If you really really really care (If you care for me like you say) Then maybe you can hang through (Then maybe you can hang through) I hope you understand (I hope you understand) It's nothing to you (It's nothing to you, you) My heart's at a low (low) I'm so much to manage I think you should know that (I think you should know) I've been damaged I'm falling in love (I'm falling in love) There's one disadvantage I think you should know that I've been damaged (I think you should know that) My heart's at a low I'm so much to manage (I'm so much to manage) I think you should know that (I think you should know that) I've been damaged (I've been damaged) I'm falling in love (I love you so) There's one disadvantage (I love you so) I think you should know that I've been damaged And I really really really want you And I think I'm kinda scared Cos I don't want to lose you If you really really really care Then maybe you can hang through I hope you understand It's nothing to you (It's nothing to you) My heart's at a low I'm so much to manage I think you should know that (Ooh I think you should know I've been damaged) I've been damaged (I've been damaged baby) I'm falling in love (Falling in love with you baby, yeah) There's one disadvantage I think you should know that I've been damaged My heart's at a low I'm so much to manage I think you should know that I've been damaged I'm falling in love There's one disadvantage I think you should know that I've been damaged
my fav song called
05.23.08 (12:45 pm) [edit]Closed off from love I didn't need the pain Once or twice was enough And it was all in vain Time starts to pass Before you know it you're frozen But something happened For the very first time with you My heart melted into the ground Found something true And everyone's looking round Thinking I'm going crazy But I don't care what they say I'm in love with you They try to pull me away But they don't know the truth My heart's crippled by the vein That I keep on closing You cut me open and I Keep bleeding Keep, keep bleeding love I keep bleeding I keep, keep bleeding love Keep bleeding Keep, keep bleeding love You cut me open Trying hard not to hear But they talk so loud Their piercing sounds fill my ears Try to fill me with doubt Yet I know that the goal Is to keep me from falling But nothing's greater Than the rush that comes with your embrace And in this world of loneliness I see your face Yet everyone around me Thinks that I'm going crazy, maybe, maybe But I don't care what they say I'm in love with you They try to pull me away But they don't know the truth My heart's crippled by the vein That I keep on closing You cut me open and I Keep bleeding Keep, keep bleeding love I keep bleeding I keep, keep bleeding love Keep bleeding Keep, keep bleeding love You cut me open And it's draining all of me Oh they find it hard to believe I'll be wearing these scars For everyone to see I don't care what they say I'm in love with you They try to pull me away But they don't know the truth My heart's crippled by the vein That I keep on closing You cut me open and I Keep bleeding Keep, keep bleeding love I keep bleeding I keep, keep bleeding love Keep bleeding Keep, keep bleeding love You cut me open and I Keep bleeding Keep, keep bleeding love I keep bleeding I keep, keep bleeding love Keep bleeding Keep, keep bleeding love You cut me open and I Keep bleeding Keep, keep bleeding love
to all the guys out there
05.20.08 (12:29 pm) [edit]to any guy out there im lookin for a relationship still so try to contact me at punk_rock_chic816@yahoo.com
hey
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